kincheng's blog!:D

2009-12-28T17:59:00.000-08:00

some things just leave a sick feeling in my stomach, because I'm the reason, but not the cure.

2009-11-04T18:12:00.000-08:00

HAHA everybody check this out ! (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpHoHJ4DFIQ

boomzzz ! and shingz, I need to get going for gp D:

2009-08-03T19:31:00.000-07:00

Shadow is burnt, yellow dance and we turn
My lashes are dry, purple teardrops I cry
It don't have a price, loving you is cherry pie

2009-08-01T19:26:00.000-07:00

OMG. life has been more than just boring lately. in fact, it's been pretty torturous and my life is now filled with tons of work-doing !!! extremely annoying and mentally disturbing.

I'm extremely worried about my work; I suck at all subjects !!! like seriously. IDK what to do about chem ! I mean. when you actually study just a lil for a subject and have tuition yet fail, that simply reflects not just lack of intellect, but also pure stupidity. and since I'm extremely elitist and I can't really stand dumb people that's just worrying. D:

I realise I haven't blogged since JUNE gosh that's a hell long time not to blog. life has been pretty OK so far I guess. I mean. at least I'm not suffering from some kind of illness or having a lack of food to eat. haha. that reminds me. I'm starting to realise that with alot of people money is actually a problem !!!!! it's kind of disturbing. for instance, my brother had a bbq yesterday - as in he held a bbq at our bbq pit downstairs but it's the kind where everyone who goes has to pay. and his friends were like willing to pay $5 !!!!!!!?!? I mean like seriously what the hell do you expect to eat with $5. some noodles and a fishcake !? TT I can't stand it when people are stingy over money. damn annoying. I mean if you think about it, going to MACs alone can reduce one's wallet by $5, and it's not even quality food. it's JUNK food. so I was pretty incredulous and annoyed. and then there're people who live quite miserably (in my opinion) openly due to lack of money. which is something new cos in sec school people don't say they don't have money, unless it's in a joking way, like I'm broke let's not spend on food ! but of course they'd be able to get plenty of cash from parents. that probably reflects that when people get older then get more conscious of their financial situation ?! I think. anyway. it's kind of annoying not to have money. which basically leads to why I am even working hard at this point of time. some people have money in the family, ie they have some kind of family business that can be passed down to future generations. but some don't, for instance my family, and since I have zero brains I'm seriously worried about my future !!!! my dad keeps saying I'll end up as a clerk typing documents in the office or a road sweeper ! wtf. it actually sounds extremely possible looking at my results. D: omg I just blogged a whole lot of crap about weird stuff and I have no idea what I'm talking about and I'm damn stressed !!!! :/

sighhh I need chem help !!! and all other help. actually the best help I can probably get right now is to start on chem revision package. which I shall go do right now before lunch and tuition. DD:

2009-06-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
I won't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

2009-06-17T18:36:00.000-07:00

I WANT that dickies bag. and since I'm in such a bad mood I will get what I want. ==

Shopping with babes on tuesday was pretty damn awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!! I bought 2 gorgeous beautiful dresses and a wonderful dress for ming's birthday !! hope she likes it !! (: (: then bao bought herself two dresses too, one of them a MAXI, like she always wanted. except she said she felt skeptical towards it and that she'd probably hate it once she got home. LOL ! ANDDDDD, I bought a freaking awesome charles and keith blue bag that is SO DAMN PRETTY !!!!! hahahaha. well, I bought a portion of it. but of course, the entire bag is mine to keep. YAY !! (:

omg I think I have shopaholic symptoms ?! I am totally broke and I spent like a hundred bucks on tuesday so now I am bankrupt. f ! I shall hibernate at home or live on my mother's money from now on. i.e. go out with my mom or not go out at all. sighhhhhhhhhhh I wana watch ghosts of girlfriends past !!! but evil ming said she wanted to watch it with junhao instead so we didn't watch a movie ! hahahaha nvm shopping was brilliant I LOVE SHOPPING omg I need to shop again soon. rarhhhh.

then vernon joined us for dinner and junhao pangsehed as usual cos he STILL wasn't ready to meet us (==lame shit !) lol and ming and bao said vernon seems like a nice person I'm so glad I have such wonderful understanding friends who stand by me or else I don't know what I'll do !! so THANKS BABES ! I love you so much !! (:

and I guess all this is worth a shot. so. gogogo !

haha. oh dear. I am so insane. D:

which reminds me. my parents came back from hk/macau/china. and soooooooooo, I have a new bag(which I used yesterday : DDDD) new shirt new SOCKS ! :D new hair ties new wallet. that should be all. oh and tons of food. which is actually pretty delicious, I'm rather surprised. oh and my mom bought this dancing mat thingy !!!! hahahaha. the one in arcades. it says 'jian fei' something, which means people in china use it to lose weight hahaha ! awesome I'll use it to get rid of my fats if possible. D: oh and my parents bought this funny erm writing thingy. as in, a scroll, like a dui lian, but it's freshly written on by some 'da shi' (I think he sounds like a monk !! but he isn't one.) and it has all our names in it. hahahaha. and my mom bought scallop !!!! yayeyyy. I hope I don't get sick of eating scallops by then. hahahahahah.

my studies are totally crap I just started econs chapter 5 hahaha I'm hoping everybody's on the same boat as I am but of course considering this is fucking NJ and everybody mugs, I know not. play is TODAY !!!!!!! and there's an andro competition. hahahahahah sounds fucking fun omg !!! I bet my mom won't allow though. I'll ask her anyway. but I probably won't dare to go, I look like an idiot compared to real party girls !! D: I need a make over and plastic surgery. hahahhah. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ok I'm off to sleep. (:

2009-06-15T19:36:00.000-07:00

shame: losing sight of my faith and instead, acting according to my vices.

2009-06-15T09:35:00.000-07:00

I am living the life of a pig/couch potato and growing fatter in all the wrong places I need a dietary specialist to help me with my eating problems any nutritionist in training who needs practice can come work on me !!!

2009-06-15T07:10:00.000-07:00

too much tears.

2009-06-03T20:32:00.000-07:00

She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s trippin on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She don’t care

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feel the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love

He was always giving her attention
Looking hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
But most suckers hated
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him

She calls him up
She’s tripping on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain’t comin home now
He’s tryin' to forget her
That’s how he got with her
When he first met her
When they first got together

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feel the beat now
If you've got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat
to the beat
to the beat
You got nothing to lose
Don’t be afraid to get down

We break up
It’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay,let it go
Get out there and find someone

It’s too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire
You knew everything was good here

Stop what you’re doin'
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you've got to find a new one

Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love

Nooo...
Noooo
Now you know what to do,
so come on feelin' good

2009-06-03T19:27:00.000-07:00

the days have been mildly interesting !

on sunday I went to expo. after travelling from CLEMENTI to the EAST we waited for half an hour plus to turn right U-turn and enter the car park and waited more for a parking lot. then I had to pee and I made my mother and bro wait for me while I queue half an hour for the toilet, which had 2 miserable units, one of which was squatting. sheesh ! then we headed straight for the foodfair and bought tons of stuff ate tons of stuff and walked all the way back to the car to dump the food in the boot. then we headed to popular sale and bought a whole lot of other stuff Idk what really but we did get 3building block thingies !! my bro finished making the sydney opera house - it's pretty ! then we dumped the stuff in the car again and I went to john little sale with my mom and my bro went to bring my dad from the mrt station to the car to dump his luggage and they joined us. I saw an awesome wallet that came in red and black !!! and I think I told this china woman's red wallet. cos she prob put it down to consider if she wanted it and I picked it up !! and walked off with it. and THEN in the end my mom and the lady in front of us in the queue said it wasn't worth it so I didn't get it since nobody but myself approved of my selection. walao it's damn nice Poccilini wallet la !! except it was regular price so if I really want it I might as well get it elsewhere where people don't condemn my selection. my dad and bro bought shorts and I bought a num shirt !!!!!!!! omg it's damn cheap. EVERYBODY !!!! go expo to get cheap num shirts ! haha. ok but the guys said it's cheaper in their retail outlets so I guess everybody should just head to the retail outlets ! : DDD omg that reminds me, I'm damn fat !!!!!! ))): anyway. my dad got bored so he went to the popular sale with my bro and my mom and I shopped and we met when we were done and headed to my grandma's house ! then I headed home and crashed.

monday. had a whole day of school ! 3hours of econs with mr goh. celebrated debbra's birthday in advance (it's today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBBRA ! : DD ). she had a yummy cake in a beautiful box and a pretty board !! haha. then we (kaimin daryl and I) headed for gp and it was :// omg and kaimin was damn funny. we had to read a para each and kaimin started laughing like siao halfway then we both started laughing and she suddenly shouted halfway through reading I cannot read alr !! hahaha it was damn funny then everyone started laughing at her and mrs nair was like emmmmmmmmmm and she skipped my turn and asked someone else to read hahaha so diulian !!! then later on I had to read a super long para instead. all kaimin's fault !! hahaha. hm then after gp we hung around then kaimin went for cip and I went to join guit people and scrolled through mingyang's phone. which was his friend's, cos his phone was spoilt. then we went for guit prac. which was damn short ! poor non scholars who came purely for guit prac !! probably berating themselves for even appearing. or maybe not. hahah. hmm had briefing for wed. hahaha then wanghan was damn stupid and he asked chenyu and I if we're together ! LOL. and I was like, no !? do we look like we're together ? == then he was like, I dono ! hahaha. omg he's so dumb !! and he likes insulting my playing and asking me to shut up. haha idiot !

on wed I went to nus for workshop. OMG. the instructor is from german - he's from the top guit ensemble in the world, HE IS SO CUTE !!!!! hahahahahahahahahaha. OMG. his head's shaved, and he was wearing this black shirt, as in proper shirt, with sleeves folded to his elbow, and black pants, and black shoes with laces, and a RED TIE !!!!!! hhaahhaahahahah. so he looked cute hot and sexy. omg. and his playing is freaking awesome like omgwth makes me want to kill myself. no wonder he belongs to top ensemble in the world. wth. he can make a normal guitar sound damn awesome hahaha. so he corrected tons of our playing and we sounded much much much better after the whole thing and omg we should have gone for this before syf we'll confirm get honours !! except the timing doesn't fit. anyway. we(the entire group) took photos then we headed for dinner ! then the dinner venue changed and I had to tell liya how to get there. so finally we headed to jack's place in clementi cos swensen doesn't allow bookings. which I found out some time ago again. omg I've been spelling swensen as swenson despite having eaten there a zillion times wth !!! damn stupid. zzz. anyway. dinner was yummy. ms maureen ng treated us !! omg she must have spent a bomb. I ordered a shittake mushroom soup ( I think that's how to spell it ) and seafood pasta YUMYUMYUM !!!!!! then we had cake cos ms ng bought 2 for us - tiramisu and raspberry. I had raspberry, damn nice !!!!!!!!!!! then we headed home earlier than the rest cos serene had to cross the causeway. and belle took stupid photos of me. evil ! hahaha. my house was ONE stop from the place so I reached home pretty early and drank a bowl of soup my mom left for me, almost died from a bursting stomache, and went to crash !!!

This reminds me, I need to stop wasting time and start studying. D:

2009-05-30T16:59:00.000-07:00

somebody turn the lights on
somebody tell me what's wrong
I'd be lying if I told you
losing you is something I can handle
somebody turn the lights on
somebody tell me how long
all this darkness will surround you
cuz I'm burning for you
burning like a candle
(:

I did go out on friday to watch ming after all !! (: Evil Enid pangsehed me so we didn't go out with wenloong after all. so I went all the way to BISHAN to watch ming's harmoc concert ! met vernon to eat first and junhao was so late by the time he arrived we were almost done ! so we met him downstairs and bought stuff and he complained he was hungry then we walked all the way to RJ cos the stupid guys didn't want to spend (well actually, junhao said he didn't want to spend) 45cents taking the mrt. so annoying walaoeh !!!!!!! cheapo guys. reminds me of jas's floorball guys but that was worse cos they walked dono how many bus stops hahahaha. and so I didn't get to try the circle line like ming told me to. sigh. hm then we finally found the place (lt2) and ming passed us tickets and tottered around in my pretty heels. HAHA. sighhhh I have chio friends. no wonder my self confidence is beneath the ground. hhaahhaha. hmmmmm so junhao vernon and I went to grab seats and watched the 1hour plus concert and junhao attempted taking really noob photos of ming only at the finale, in which she was in the SECOND row. lamo. so the only photo he got of ming was of the second row standing first row going to stand up and ming's eyes closed. lol ! what wonderful photography skills : DD I didn't get to stay back for the VID cos my mom was nagging at me to come back. so I went home ! tried 156. had to wait so long for it. and it takes forever. but it was okay overall. hahaha. fun day.

SAT !
went to IMM to help liya out with her OCBC project. her friend jumana(I think that's the spelling) was there so it was more happening. except they both took out notes to mug after a while and I was like !?! hahahaha. then dorli dropped by around lunch time to say hi (to jumana) and went off after a while. then jumana went off at around 1+ and vernon joined us. anyway. selling stuff was fun !! ok, quite fun, cos I like all the stuff. hahaha. oh yea, when I arrived, liya was like, go straight to the garden plaza(or whatever it's called, I can't rmb). then I was like, ok ! and when I went there it was some COLOURING COMPETITION and non air conditioned and I was like, ok cannot be here. so I walked the entire length of 3rd storey and figured liya wasn't there so I called her again and somehow or rather I finally found her in the garden plaza. hahaha. it started raining and the rain was falling in!so the scouts helped us shift the tables inner. mmmm. we sold glass pebbles folding stuff stickers printed scotchtape heartclips spongebob/patrick erasers pencils coloured pens ! for charity: very special arts. hahaha. it's so interesting to sell stuff. hm. liya said if you do it many times it's boring. hahah. oh and the dj kept replaying the same songs over and over !!! I must have heard britney's If You Seek Amy at least 5 times !! what inappropriate music for kids' colouring competition. haha oh I coloured a tiny piece of something. it's so nice lah !!!!!!! hahahahah. I have fabulous art work. lol ! hm then we finished off and made a pathetic sum cos the place wasn't even along the stream of human flow and it was so hot in the afternoon, then we carried all the stuff to the taxi stand !! sheesh almost died. the scouts are evil, never help us carry !! grr. hm then liya cabbed back with jo(the organiser) and I went to eat with vernon at some place outside daiso and at secret recipe -sherperd's stew or something and blueberry cheesecake!!!! - then I went home. fun day ! I wish I could do the 14june selling at PS !!!!!!!!! but I have bloody tuition. argh. oh yes. tuition has been increased to twice a week during hols ! sheesh gosh. :/ oh well. this reminds me, I have bloody alot of work to do ! D:

anyways. I'd better get going. going out to expo for FOODFAIR later hahahahaha. omg my diet plan is non existent and I resemble a pig. ): my dad'll be back from sydney ! (: better study for a bit.

ciao !

2009-05-27T18:20:00.001-07:00

sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down (:

2009-05-27T17:53:00.000-07:00

and I know that you see
what you're doing to me
tell me why

HELLO ! these two weeks have been pretty interesting. went to town quite a few times last week. damn fun !!!!!!! went to j8 too cuz I had tuition there. spent 100bucks in a week. damn broke !!!!! who wants to sponsor me a 30bucks fox spags top !!!! hahaha.

watched angels & demons last week with enid. DAMN AWESOME OMG !!! hm then watched night at the museum, or something like that. quite interesting too. omg I want to watch chick flicks !!!!!!!! like new in town. I think.

radio is nice. I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I REALLY WANA KISS YOU BUT I CANT 6789998212 BABY YOU KNOW THAT I MISS YOU I WANA GET WITH YOU TONIGHT BUT I CANNOT BABY GIRL AND THATS THE ISSUE GIRL YOU KNOW I MISS YOU I JUST WANA KISS YOU BUT I CANT RIGHT NOW SO KISS ME THROUGH THE PHONE ((((:

my mother is SO annoying. she jails me in my house. seriously. didn't even allow me out today. AND doesn't allow me to watch ming's concert this fri, because she thinks XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. it's killing me. I want to scream and shout. except that's stupid.

anyway. I've been suffering from a bout of hyperactiveness ever since my excruciating stomach pain on mon/tues. seriously ! I absolutely cannot stand sitting at someplace not doing anything constructive. like right now, I feel a need to move around and do something. sheeshhh. must be the result of lying in bed doing nothing for too long. I know what I need. a RUN. goshhhhhhh arghhh I need to do some exercise. seriously. I resemble a pig. and stomach pains always reaffirm the fact that I cannot get pregnant cos I will just die from pain, if I don't die from looking at my bloated stomach to begin with sjfaksl;f jwoijxklg;jwakrl ;ewwwwwwwwwwwww. ok I think I have lots of phobias in life.

SIGHHHHHhh. I have to have breakfast if I want to be in time to go out with mom later. ==

ciao !

2009-05-23T07:25:00.001-07:00

because we were too far gone.

2009-05-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

dear God, please punish me for my sins.

2009-05-13T16:19:00.000-07:00

I need to behave myself.
I need to behave myself in public.
I need to behave myself in public when I'm in my bloody school uniform.
I need to behave myself in public when I'm in my bloody school uniform when I'm with certain people.
I need to figure out why I'm afraid of committment.
I need to figure out what committing is going to cost me.
I need to figure out what the hell I want.
I need to meet wenyi.
I need to meet wenyi badly.
I need to find out if wenyi hates me.
I need to get out of this confusion.
I need to lose more weight.
I need to try papaya milk, much as I hate papaya.
I need to exercise.
I need to get rid of my flabs.
I need to do fuckloads of overdue work.
I need to study for tests.
I need to concentrate !!!!

and right now I need to rush off to school.

reflections.

2009-02-22T04:25:00.000-08:00

OMG !!

Haven't blogged for zeons. since 6feb, I think. cant rmb much of what went on; shall blog about what I rmb !

8feb
went out with BABES to celebrate my birthday !! rushed to town after tuition; window shopped talked talked talked watched movie had sakae ! THANKYOU babes for the gorgeous dress ( I'll wear it next time we meet) and thanks for wanting to get me a cake aha but there was no time. <333!

11feb
much thanks to everybody who wished me happy birthday ! to show how sincere I am, I shall thank each person(:
much thanks to wanying, jingwen, mingyi, wenyi, yunheng, gabriel, sipei, valerie, cheryl, all class girls, rachel, all class guys, (so sorry I can't rmb all who texted/wished me), weili, bao, lukas, elvin, cherry, kaimin, ernest, paul, hazel, wen again, shuyi, crystal, albert, ruthika, liann, sicheng, huilin, pranav, peng, ruimin, larry, szuan, mic, enhao, chenchi, jona; much thanks to enid and jf for fearless album, special thanks to jf for breaking my cd, much thanks to jas for beer, much much thanks to babes for dress, much thanks to chenchi for flower, much thanks to sipei for food/sweets/photo and movie treat to come when we're both free. special thanks to enid for not posting too many ugly photos of me, thanks to 08s10 for my yummy mango cake, thanks for not making me fatter!(though I accomplish that on my own), and thanks for surprising me during contact, ha I really was quite surprised cos I thought it'd be in the canteen after school, OH and thanks to tanwei for wishing me at the start of the day !!! hahahaha.
that reminds me of something funny. tanwei was like asking me at the end of school on 10feb: so what's your plans for tmr? and I was totally shocked and just stared at him. HAHA damn embarrassing !!!!! I was like why the hell is a teacher asking me what my plans are for tmr ?? then he said: tmr's a big day for you right! and I was like OH my BIRTHDAY ?! and I attempted recovering myself ASAP LOL. super embarrassing. D:

14feb
took sg flyer morning and evening ! was quite interesting. saw interesting les couple at night. omg, speaking of les couples... I think of high profile germaine yeo, DAMN INTERESTING ! wtf ! anyway. flyer was full of pda-ing couples. plus one emo caucasian guy who was alone, poor thing !

15feb
went some jap restaurant for dinner. sushiten or something. ok food, sakae's better ! not that either sell authentic jap food but what the hell.

16feb on
floads of tests and overdue work and too much pressure for liking

21feb
had buffet at holiday inn with mom's friends bro and meiting ! rather fun; went meiting's house to see angel. angel is soooo cute !!!!! I need a dog. haha I need to have my own house !! wonder if it's a good time to buy a house. I don't want any of the 3other properties my parents own. I need a new house, preferably overseas, in Australia...................

oh just discovered existence of korean people who live in my condo. study at cis. the oldest one, I just discovered, smokes !!!! zomfg. WHY does everyone around me smoke. I feel like some noobshit. ok I am some noobshit. I need a smoke soon, because life is hardly bearable. Which means I have to meet my cousin, or meet some other people to hang with. Zzz.

OK I'm off to attempt starting on tons of overdue work. wtf ! D:

I can't bear this ridiculous mentality of mine, and I can't hold on! I'm probably getting a gf, because no guy can compare.

2009-02-06T18:23:00.000-08:00

awesome song ! awesome lyrics ! (((:

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what i tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It's for the best, i know it is
But i see you

Sometimes i try to hide
What i feel inside

And i turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard

Should be strong
Moving on
But i see you

Sometimes i try to hide
What i feel inside
And i turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe i regret
Everything i said
No way to take it all back, yeah

Now i'm on my own
How i let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind meI'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And i really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you

2009-02-03T01:36:00.000-08:00

haven't blogged for zeons !

anyway. I have so many non material things I want that I came up with a list ! which I have to acquire by the end of the year, or feel miserable.

.rug
.sony ericsson phone (white/red)
.laptop (white)
.tees
.shorts
.pencil skirts
.CDs ! - paramour, taylor swift, twilight soundtrack !
.calculator
.chair
.hair straightener
.books - eclipse, breaking dawn !!

I actually have alot of non-clothes items, I realise. How.. surprising ! I mean. I usually only want material goods. Ok anyway. Someone stole my freaking calculator, which has my bludy name on it, or I lost it. So I need a new one. I broke my chair - OFFICE chair !! not a stool, but a bludy chair. Apparently I put my 'whole 60kg on it', as my mom says. PLS, I'm not even 60kg ! a laptop seems unlikely. I don't care much for clothes.

All I really want is ~~money in my pocket!~~ to go overseas to study and work !!!

2009-01-01T02:02:00.000-08:00

time to update.

28dec
weekends were pretty boring, as far as I remember. went to buy plants from various places for fun, including Ikea, where we bought these cute cups and a nice photo frames and I spotted a nice clock at 35bucks which I didn't end up buyingD: also saw lotsa cute soft toys !!!!! Ikea stuff are nice but mother says the furniture are lousy and no 'rich people's houses' will have them. that's unfortunate, I happen to find Ikea designs super nice. oh wells.

30dec
study date with WEN !!! in orchard cineleisure, so it was EXTREMELY productive, so to speak. hahaha. studied in bk for about 2hours plus and spotted aLOT of funny people, including this hilarious couple. they wore a couple shirt, identical black and white striped shorts, exactly same design shoes in different colours, and a bag slung in exactly the same way across their body. rest assured, got us cracking up with laughter. had subway, someone complained that it was too boring to continue studying. so we went to catch a movie but there was no good timing so we went to the arcade instead and played the dance game and shooting stuff and spent over 10bucks then I went home.

31dec
countdown partayee at nick's house. was pretty alright, watched a gruesome show, transformers and something, people watching is extremely interesting, as is talking about people and taking in new information. :D went off a while after countdown.

1jan
met Enid at ps to buy jacky and jf's presents. spent more money; I am definitely broke now. a.r.g.h. went for class chalet. counted down to jacky's birthday (kinda) and gave him his present ! and jf's his too. it was funny, jacky was like 'first time so many people sing for me !' hahahahaha aww sweet. emmm then spent the night up playing a series of card games with kaimin enid and jf. mostly bridge. ohoh I taught enid and jf slapjack, then kaimin had some additional rule and lirui joined us and entirely changed the game to slap7 hahahaha and jf's reaction is the slowest !!! then lr went off the sleep and jf kept trying to change bridge to daidi which is soo boring compared with bridge.

2jan
and then we (the girls, plus jf) all went off at around 9+ and left the rest of the guys to check out. was supposed to go orchard at 10.30am but of course was too exhausted so I slept till 2pm then my mom woke me up. had lunch then watched TWILIGHT !!! omggg. I want to be a vampire. totally. hahahh. ok this didn't hit me till some time this week. I figured that the movie fell short of expectations simply 'cause everyone's looking out for a dropdead gorgeous edward cullen who obviously can't exist because who in the world can be that lucky !?!?!??!?!!?!?
well. a girl can dream.
basically, all the vampires are awesome, just in different degrees. the girl acting bella has ... a limited expression. as does robert pattison, actually. a BIT. hahahahahaha. he makes an okay edward cullen.

3jan
slept through the day

4jan
slept through the morning. went to courts later in the evening to browse. saw jade seah. had dinner. went back to browse some more. saw jade seah again. she was doing this program advertising for courts or something and all the cameras were shooting her and there was no way we could enter courts. the bukit timah one, btw. so we stood there and waited and she stopped halfway through cooing at the tv 'wow, tv !!' == and said 'come in, come in !' and I was entirely embarrassed.
bought 2 bolsters.

5jan
forced to study for chem. which I was SO bored with. realised I didn't practise at all, simply read.

6jan
chem retest ! haw haw. I am definitely failing. 4 pages of structured questions (I think that's what it's called) and I left the last one blank. wowwie. ok at least according to pris if fail just take remedial no need to drop to H1 !!!!! well that leaves me feeling stupid, I thought I was gona have to drop all my 3subjects to H1 and was trying to figure how it'd all work out. like maybe I'll get kicked out of nj ! :D right.

7jan
went to jb to shop with mom. OMG, we tried the bus 170. it was torturous. I'll stick to taking the car. bought 2 shirts, fullstop ! I am definitely getting a hang of controlling my impulsive buys. watched bedtime stories ! funny stuff. oh and the tickets are so cheap. like .. 6rm per person. 'cause it was a wednesday and apparently tickets are cheaper on wednesdays. hahahha. oh had lunch at kenny rogers however it's spelt and mom kept complaining about her 'overnight' chicken which was apparently harder than mine. then ate at secret recipe cheese prawn marcroni and I am so fat now. ): I resemble a pig.

8jan
time to start on wonderful econs papers. I'm finally getting hell on failing econs. hms.

and that's about all that's happened in my boring boring life PLEASE SAVE ME I HAVE TO GET OUT OF SG !!!!!

that's my new goal. I hope I'll succeed.

for now, I wana find my edward cullen, and turn into a vampire.

!!

2008-12-24T18:32:00.000-08:00

time to blog about my life since getting back !

16dec
met wen for 'study date'. ended up going orchard to meet leighsan. oops. more (complaints) on wen's blog. anyways. went kap for 5mins, then went to taka. had yoshi, shopped in wisma, far east. spotted nice earrings but no money ! okay, not MUCH money. sent leighsan off at mrt, went archade and played this omg dancing game, I was pretty lousy but not as bad as wen, HAHA. Watched the day the earth stood still, or something to that effect, bought wenloong's present, went back to kap area to meet enid and drop wen off, went for wenloong's party !! pretty interesting day.

met random people.

19dec
met up with ting !! who was an hourPLUS late, haha. met up with THE GANG. (: sent leighsan off at airport. then qi was too sleepy due to bowling and ting had to meet her friend to pick up stuff. so ting derrick and I went to orchard in derrick's cousin's car, cuz he gave us a lift. then derrick and I sent ting off at the mrt so it was derrick and I. went far east and the herren to get earrings I spotted on 16dec and get him a mama mia cd cuz his bro in law bought the abba one by mistake. derrick is haohao nanzi !

met random people.

22dec
met enid for 'study date'. ended up going planning a party that never happened, and going to bugis ! found enid a nice nice bag. (: but my bargaining skills are absolutely terrible, I'm so sorry Enid !! D: had lotsa fun, ate fatty macs meal, oreo mcflurry (:

23dec
met BABES to hang. goshhhhhhhh hadn't seen them for eons. felt great wonderful awesome to talk/gossip with my dear babes. walked all day long and saw beautiful orchard christmas lights. got random people to take photos for us too. (: NICE PHOTOS !! which ming has yet to send to me. ahaha.

met random people.

got stuck outside home cuz I thought everyone was sleeping. rather stupid, turned out my bro DID open the door for me. then everyone thought I went to my friend's house to sleep. :/

that's about all interesting that's happened to me. in terms of hanging out. ((:

everything everything's magic.

2008-12-18T02:13:00.000-08:00

because I just ate a zillion plates and sakae buffet and am simply too tired to update and would have been too lazy to update anyway, shall just pick out my convo with wen and update yall on my tw trip. (:

my first friend was this guy called leigh san(pronounced lee sun, you can check him out on fb). omg damn cool, parents were singaporean, then migrated to australia. so he's born and bred in australia, has the australia accent and everything ! he's 20, tall, blahblah. go check out. moving on, my best friends were ANQI and ANTING. cos everyone said anqi and I looked alike, plus we found out we were same age and have same tastes. and they are SO MUCH FUNNN ! and we have the same taste same craziness and so on. (((((((((((((((((((((((:

then there was this guy we call old man. hahahahahah he's damn hilarious. found him damn scary annoying at first, then figured he's damnnnnnnnnnn funny and entertaining and fun and nice. tell you more about it. oh anyway, we call him old man cos he's like 23. HAHA. oh anting's sec1, means 13 ! from cedar. ((: oh and WE BOUGHT THE SAME BAG HAHAHAHA. hm. AND THEN. HAHAHA omg. this guy called BEN, from jj, 17 as well, OMG HE KNOWS SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. I almost fainted. ok I was like, OMG ! so do you know ss ??!?!?! then he said, errrr, I think so. short short fat fat one right. then I was like omggggggggggggggggg how do you know her !?!? and apparently, she took part in talentime as drummer and her group won. then I was like fffffffffffff ?!?!??!?!?! could ss possibly be more popular then ME !?!?!?!?!? I mean, I am like so infamous, this is SO unfair. )))):ok so ben has a sister, 12, yunjie, cute but shy so the two of them don't talk much to us.

oh and the guys (ie. leighsan and ben) are like into magic. prob to pick up girls, in the former's case. AHHA. just kidding. it's for interest. LOL.then there's this family with 3 girls, dono much about them, don't talk to them.

AND THENNNN. this couple that once sat across from me on the bus. (before we all moved to the last row.) damn funny. we called them a.s. couple, will tell you more. ok this is damn cool. then one day the guy (who sits nearer me, which is, along the asle, however you spell it) asks me where im from. so I say NJ, with absolutely no pride. then he goes oh ! I teach HC. and I'm like OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG !?! damn loudly on the bus. like, you know, my voice is damn loud. hahahahahahahaha. then I was like omgggg so he knows practically all my friends !??!!? and he was from nj. THEN. his gf was like, do you know yipeng ? I was like, thinkthinkthink, yep he's in my gp class. then she said: ooh he's my brother ! you know him arh !! wapiang then I was like OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahha hDAMN interesting twist of fate don't you think. and then apparently the teacher saw a GROUP of his students from ny in hc now in a hotel we were staying in. urban hotel, I think. COOL RIGHT !!!

there were 3 couples in all. fun people. OH I can't believe I almost forgot. the TOUR GUIDE !! called ray. he's nice la but a bit horny :/ tell you more !!! : D : D I mean, shouldn't talk about weird stuff here. cos he's nice. : DOH and the tour leader from spore ! omg I forgot about her too !??!!? how horrible of me. she's superrr nice, she's only 23 !! same as old man. and she's alr working. hm realise I forgot to take photo with her !omg and also !! there's this old auntie and her son. they're nice too. yea and that's all I know about them. hahahahha anyway; anqi and I both wana do some business stuff and work in banks !!! ok maybe it's a phase. speaking of phases, we both wana marry a rich old dying man !!!!! hahahahha but it's a phase. I don't think I'd actually do it. == cos quite gross !!

hm old man studies electrical engineering, 3rd year next year, leighsan studies accounting, last year next year. kinda strange huh. prob cos oldman has ns. oh studied in spore la, unlike leighsan, but now he's studing in SYDNEY U !!!! damn bloody SYDNEY LEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. sydney. ok imo, Sydney's the most beautiful place I've been to for holiday !!! walaoeh damn unfair. spore sucks la omg if you study overseas call me along !!!! omg go AUSTRALIA !! oh he studies is unsw. isn't that DAMN GOOD !!?!??!!?!? shit I feel so lousy and stupid la ))):

anyway. we did floads of EATING. cannot stand it !!! I resemble a pig now. and shopping, though I barely bought anything. damn, saw this damn nice NIKE bag but mom refused to buy it. doh. ooh then we did karaoke in some spa hotel. I didn't do the spa, and my friends, ie anqi ting san oldman my bro, didn't either, lucky for me !! then we went crazy and nuts and it was fun. mmmmmmmmmmm and so each night we hung out and played cards and gossiped and it was fun. and there was this amusement park too. hahahahahha this ufo thingy was like ajksljfklas;tjwoijlk;. it's the thing that brings you up and drops you down, free fall. freaky fun !!!!!

hm and then fun was present when we crashed the guys' room, which was next to ours. omG did I mention that leighsan and old man are cousins !? I think I forgot. anyway, oldman's name is dunrui, but stupid leighsan told me it was 'derrick' so for the entire trip I called him that, and the girls did too cos I told them that was his name. ahhahaha damn funny larh !!!!! tell you more about crashing the guys' room.

and that's about all I updated wen with. which is quite alot, if you think about it.

anyways, I am feeling SO MISERABLE, despite everything. must be post trip blues. gosh, I don't usually feel post trip blues. I usually hate going overseas cos it'd mean missing co and it'd mean being behind others having to catch up with people. but of course, NJ's all different.

despite trying to hole myself up after my return, everybody's decided to get back to me to go out. so. that leaves zero time for me to study. woohoo. I'm gona fail everything and have to drop 3 h2s to h1s ?!!? I think.

Sobbs.

DYING to meet up with tw peeps soon. <333 !

2008-12-14T07:04:00.000-08:00

God was kind and gave me a GREAT taiwan clique. probably to make up for the fats I gained from all that eating.

Well, it was well worth it. For that I am thankful. (:

<33 !!

2008-12-04T17:54:00.000-08:00

2008-12-03T23:17:00.000-08:00

lunch with mother and bro.

mother keeps saying I am faaats !

2008-12-02T06:22:00.000-08:00

I feel like NJ has lowered my lifestyle.

):

2008-11-25T06:01:00.000-08:00

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh

Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

2008-11-25T05:40:00.000-08:00

Shawn came over to teach me chem yesterday.

My stupidity is alarming. F***, I am now terribly worried about what's in my brain. Or what's not.

Trying to decide whether I should have a life, or whether I should have a future, is driving me crazy.

Anyway, I am totally going out all day long nowadays. Goodness. I think I've learnt not to buy on impulse !! Omg that's like darn good.

OK I need to lose weight. Somebody please save me from myself. D: D: D:

Photos !

2008-11-14T21:56:00.000-08:00

Photos of myself.

More with Enid to come, hopefully ! (:

2008-11-14T21:31:00.000-08:00

1.How many texts are in your inbox?
11
2.When did your last hug take place?
a week ago ?
3. Are you a jealous person?
uh
4.Are you tired right now?
not really
5.Do you chew on your straws
yep !
6.Have you ever been called a tease?
no idea what that is, but no
7.Do you like to cuddle?
no
8.Do you cry easily?
not really, unless I'm watching some show
9.Are you a heavy sleeper?
I think
10.Where is your cellphone?
next to me
11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
ha
12.Are you mad at someone right now?
no
13.Do you believe in love at first sight?
no
14.What makes you laugh out loud?
goh wenyi ! (:
15.Who was the last person you talked to?
my mom
16.Name one person on your top friends who is most like you.
goh wenyi
17.Do you get butterflies when around the person you like?
don't like anyone
18.Will you get married?
no !
19.When was the last time you smiled?
just, after watching a funny romantic korean dvd
20.Does anyone like you?
not like like, but like yes
21.Do you secretly like someone?
no
22.Who was the first person you talked to today?
mom: let's go for Ikea breakfast !
23.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
goh wenyi, enid
24.What are you NOT looking forward to?
my next rainy season
25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
no
26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
wow yet another
27.Are you a forgiving person?
yep
28.What's something you really want right now?
out, of nj
29.Do you fall for people easily?
no
30.Have you ever fallen for your best friend ex's ?
no !
31.What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
apple
32.Have you ever kissed anyone named Michelle?
no
33.Who was the last person you drove with?
dad
34.How late did you stay up last night and why?
11 ?
35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
when I work, probably some other cool country
36.Do you prefer to call or text?
don't mind either
37.When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
can't remember
38.Who took your profile picture?
Enid !
39.Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Enid !
40.Can you live a day without TV?
yep
41.Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
um
42.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?\
groggy
43.Who was the last person you took a picture of?
myself/Enid
44.How often do you see your ex?
never
45.Would you ever donate blood?
not unless it's highly necessary
46.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yup
47.Do you want someone dead?
not really
48.What does your last text message say?
Oops thanks
50.What are you thinking about right now?
Gokusen's funny
51.Do you wish someone was with you right now?
yea, nyco !
52.What time did you go to sleep last night?
11
53.Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
p6 camp tee
54.Is someone on your mind right now?
hm. nobody in particular
55.Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?
umm, nope
56.Who was the last person to text you?
Kah How
57.Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
hmmmmmmmm. good question
58.What are you listening right now?
nothing
59.Did you sing at all today?
yepp
60.When's the last time you cried?
dono
61.Who were you with yesterday?
guitar people, Enid !
62.Do you miss anyone?
hell yea, ny !
63.Who was the last person in your bed?
me
64.Have you ever drank with your number one?
lol number one what
65.If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
it really depends on who, haha
66.Do you want someone you can't have?
hm, countless jap korean and angmoh guys, yea
67.When did you last talk to your brother or sister?
um just
68.Where were you at 2:02 am this morning?
on my bed
69.Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
no
70.Do you want to tell someone something?
hm, Enid to send me photos ?
Bonus question. Who do you want to tag?
whoever wants to do this

Done, tjf ! :D

2008-11-02T05:51:00.000-08:00

HAHA, talking to Chris is incredibly funny.

I am SUPER dead. Ate loads of unhealthy heaty stuff today. Loads of cookies Jas bought, drank a can of nice gas-y slightly alcoholic something, ate half of macs nugget meal (shit !), subway toasted parmesan with horrible southwest sauce, icelemontea.

About my subway meal.
1. I don't like terriyaki chicken, it's full of fats, gross.
2. I don't like the sauce, it's kind of strange.
3. The chicken was spicy.
4. The sauce was spicy.
5. My sorethroat probably worsened.

I have. Absolutly no control over my eating habits ?! What the hell I'm probably gona end up looking like SS. Well, hopefully this gets better after OP when I'm significantly less stressed.

YAY it shall all be over in less than 24hours !! And even though I'm not preparing for Q&A cos I can't think of anything and I hope I can crap up some stuff tomorrow,
GOGOGO !! (:

2008-10-30T07:21:00.001-07:00

My throat hurtssss. ):

2008-10-22T07:30:00.001-07:00

fucking.bastard.

2008-10-19T00:13:00.000-07:00

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道

不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

What beautiful lyrics !

2008-10-18T23:49:00.001-07:00

I am so sorry.

2008-10-15T08:01:00.000-07:00

A fucked day.

2008-10-09T05:05:00.001-07:00

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You trying to say
Things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wana fall to pieces
I just wana sit and stare at you

2008-10-08T07:22:00.001-07:00

I have so many thoughts to blog about but there's no time !

How annoying. ==

2008-10-08T07:18:00.000-07:00

My life has been revolving around PW.

:/

Anyway.

7Oct, my poor presentation !!!!! Hahaha, omg, because of the circumstances. And only because of the circumstances,
f!
diulian !!!

walao damn diulian. I'm going to do a good script so I don't speak worse than I did.
~~Or rather than some bengs who can't actually speak well but did better than me, nabei !~~

2008-10-02T06:47:00.000-07:00

Watched housebunny today; it was entirely heartwarming and wonderful ! (:

I realise that was rather abrupt. Ohwell here's a brief overview of significant segments of my recent life.

Sunday: Had breakfast and dinner ! Which included dimsum and Swensen icecream. Guilty conscience wasn't enough to stop me from eating.

Mon: Chem spa ? Wasn't too bad. The teacher in charge of our shift was rather nice. Did pw.

Tues: read all day long.

Wed: went SHOPPING with my mom. i.e. , I actually purchased stuff. Well, shopping is the most fun thing eva. I bought a new pencilbox ! But after I came home and all I realised I didn't really need a new pencilbox. I just bought it cos.. I wanted to buy something. That would make me feel happy.
DOH.
Anyway. I feel quite sad for my old pencilbox. Which has been with me since I was sec1. Haha ok not that I used it for, erm, 5years, or anything, (actually, I'm lazy to carry a huge pencilbox now that I don't have a classroom) but well it's bright yellow, brandless, and, I've come to realise, is one of the non materialistic things I actually own.
Sucks, I'm a superficial bitch.

Anyways. Had buffet lunch before that. DIMSUM, again, along with lots of other interesting food. Oh my, that reminds me, I seemed to be surrounded by kids. The entire restaurant was filled with kids, to my horror, and these kids from the table next to mine were so.. uncultured, they were shouting directly behind my chair, sitting on the floor, and basically, being very barbaric. Also, a very distasteful girl/woman from the same table was wearing a disgusting pair of shorts which had some cartoon on it. To a restaurant. I pointed that out to my bro, and he informed me that she was wearing a pair of boxers, and that she was wearing it the other way round, he could see the slit for peeing on her butt. I went, WHAT! , turned around, and lo and behold, discovered he was right. Yucks ! Distasteful dressing is an absolute turnoff. As are kids.

Omg, speaking of kids, a kid boy, who's up to my thigh, lifted up my skirt when I was shopping. Omg, gave me a total shock. And since it's my natural reaction to shriek, I did. His mother was horrified and began apologising profusely. I went, erhmmmm, it's fine.

Yummy SUSHI for dinner. I love !

Today! Phy SPA, disaster. My g value was 8.91, I shall say no more. Carried out our GAME, (after realising we forgot alot of parts, like the cards, the DIE, lol) , with Daryl Constance Eli and Wen Song. (: It was rather successful, I would say, considering we forgot quite a bit of stuff. Heheh.
Went off with Constance, Eli, Jing Wen and Jun Feng to eat SUBWAY (melt, of course) and watched HOUSE BUNNY ! ((: ((: A wonderful and heartwarming movie, imo.

Rather interesting week. Except I worry about my food intake; I've been eating too much for my own good, cos food's suddenly become an important part of my life, I binge when I'm moody, eat when I'm hanging out, eat when I've nothing to do, eat when I need to study and can't concentrate.

RARH. And now, time for pw. Then I'm off to read, or to sleep.

In my next life I wana be a hot house bunny and live in luxury with a rich man and find great wonderful friends. (:

If there is a next life.

2008-09-24T00:50:00.000-07:00

physics, I've more or less given up on. had spaghetti and watched cartoons for hours; cartoons are funny ! and stupid. slept for 2hours, my head hurts now man !

a summation of my feelings:
I am skeptical about promoting.

2008-09-10T05:18:00.000-07:00

In all honesty, I wonder what happened to us.

2008-09-06T23:15:00.000-07:00

NY, where the love lies (:

2008-09-03T18:04:00.000-07:00

Minus the stoning at my work, it's been a pretty eventful week. (Since fri). ok. half week. im lazy to cap the first letter of my sentences !

Fri:

teachers' day celebs. nice !
hung out with ming and sai and random others. went RJ with ming. wah, her pw meeting lasted 2HOURS so I had to wait, wait, wait. oi omy you owe me a treat hor hahaha !
hm, then we went to J8. saw lots of interesting people hahahha, 2/3s of the people enid tipped me off about. not too bad, considering I arrived eons later. : D
went for sakae buffet, and since junhao came along, and bao was mia-ing (bao how can you mia !!!!! so sad la ! ) , so in short, I became the extra one ! walao ! haha it was fun anyway, erm, junhao taught me vectors LOL. and I realise we didnt even eat any red plates. doh.

tues:
went JEC, watched wall-e, CUTE ! (:

wed:
great day. (:
went with pw group to settler's cafe. omg sucked la. shall not elaborate on how we spent fages walking all over holland then took a cab when the place we were looking for was just BEHIND the block we were standing at. and lots of other wtf things. hahaha. had fun, went thai express, played / discovered some fun games. yay jas jingwen ! (:

HIGHTEA. cabbed there cos damn late. im brokeeeeeee now. ok people who went: 3aunties, meiting and bf, shawn, bro, me. um, enjoyed company, in short. YAY PEOPLE. hahahaha. okay im kind of crazy. and shawn kept calling me a bimbo. meiting looks pretayeee. ok not bad la. HAHA.
hm. went to watch 12lotus thereafter. walao, lame la, wouldn't ever have watched it if I were with nj or ny friends. hahahahaha. NVM. it was kind of, erm, i have no idea what's going on. then went shopping for a bit and it was 9.30pm+
went home fell asleep promptly.

OH. saw quite a few nj people on the way. status people, to be exact. jiateng and gang, wayne wuhong and mr yip's student, atc, HAHA. weird. ==

thurs:
CHEM lesson. im late. hahaha but im always late. i dont feel like moving at all.
gp tuition tonight.

):

sighh. i need a more interesting life.

my heart hurts.

2008-08-24T07:06:00.000-07:00

Just watched Beijing Olympics Closing Ceremony. Impressive !

Well done China ! (:

2008-08-22T20:58:00.000-07:00

I am so troubled.

):

2008-08-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

I wana be faithful but I can't keep my hands off the cookie jar. (:

2008-08-20T06:48:00.001-07:00

My gosh I just read a sucker mail from enhao which reflects that all my fave foods are the top most unhealthy foods. ARGH.

Life has been damn shit recently. Mountains of work which I can't complete, cos 1) I have no time 2) I have no idea how to do the questions.
And also I have absolutely no motivation, I SUCK. ARGH. ):

Apart from my work troubles, FG has had me disturbed/troubled. From the moment the looking old thing started, I thought fuck. Not too long later I figured I should totally be more aware of my surroundings, more street smart and less naive. And learn when to stop. Thank goodness I asked for a bag. It kind of shook me awake from my stupidity. Because if I get raped, I'll kill myself.

I guess plain old fun does have a downside after a bit.

I am .. reflecting on the consequences of my terrible actions.
):

2008-08-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

Went to study with wen on Friday. As usual, it was totally unproductive and we did fun stuff like frenching.

Love you biaatch !

Beijing Olympics : first medal in 48 years ! hoho. (:

I need a fucking brain. Attempting to catch up with work. But failing. I want to complain. But I shall do so elsewhere, so as not to pollute my blog too much.

2008-08-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

Another super sleepy day.

econs: mrs liew read off the slides without explaining. I'm guessing she thinks we can't read for ourselves, or something.

pe: almost died at the horrible push up position we had to do. omg, please tell me this will never happen during pe again. )):

break: NIKE SALE ! hahaha. I'm too poor to buy a bag or anything else though. ):

after break: SPA. I am a klutz. Enid and I went to do SPA while another class was occupying the lab. (Albert's class). Then omg it was super embarrassing cos we had to go to the front to get all the stuff. Ha and to round it off, I dropped a glass beaker into the sink by accident and the entire class turned to look (cos we were situated at the back) and mr yip said: is anything broken == . I wanted to.. disappear into the face of the earth. Ha ha. ):

CAAL: I am so glad Enid and I didn't skip CAAL. Cos we got to know 2 very nice people, namely Zhi Quan and Ariel. Haha ARIEL IS A GIRL'S NAME, LIKE ! Hahah I was like aaah?? But I tactfully went: mm, I have a girl friend called Ariel ! (wen's history classmate).
Em. We ended up going to subway, talking lots of nonsense, shopping for a bit, and taking photos with a giant jacobs biscuit. Har har. Ohoh and we met pris constance wanying and their tutees at subway. (:

Goodluck to all my tutees and their friends for O's ! (though you won't be reading this.) ALL THE BEST ! (:

2008-08-12T04:53:00.000-07:00

My life is so terrible and I have zillions of things to do.

SO. No time to blog. Not much, anyway.

Went to study with my SISTER and mr yip on monday. hahaha. subway is yummy. We should study more together. I think studying with FRIENDS is so much more effective than studying at home = not studying = stoning.

I would like to express my gratitude to PRISCILLA and WANYING for accompanying me on the horrendous bus journey with that stupid ****** bus driver, curse him! THANKS SO SO MUCH, LOVE YOU GUYS !! ((:

Lots of interesting yet insignificant things happening in my life. I guess I should focus on my studies. Cos it's in a terrible state. ):

Since I can't have you
I'll be nunnified.

2008-08-03T06:41:00.000-07:00

Short post, cos I'm rushing eom.

Saturday: went out with jw jf and kw to do pw. Unfortunately, everyone was late (except for kw) . So, being the nearest to jelibrary, I arrived half an hour after kw. and had to wait 20mins for jw and jf to arrive. ie. I was alone with kw. Wapiang, for 20mins, I had to endure his scolding for being late. Then FINALLY jw and jf came (yay!). did a significant proportion of WR. (:

kw was saying alot of really brainless stuff and I was super pissed off. PLUS he was soooo smelly that I really honestly wanted to go and die.

Couldn't go for CIP cos I had tuition. ): I'd have gone, cos I have a lack of CIP HOURS !! Aah. ):

I feel depressed. Cos I'm stupid and I hate being so lousy. What the eff.

I'm thinking. I'd choose looks over status. And character over.. Aherm.

Argh. I hate people with no conscience ! Wth.

Your voice
was the soundtrack of my summer
Your eyes
are the brightest of all the colours
(:
I'd choose you over anybody anytime

2008-08-02T22:48:00.000-07:00

Oh
my
God.

Ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffantastic.

):

WTF= Wow that's fantastic. (: Learnt that from Albert, hahaha. Guitar is joy.

Other things, not.

2008-07-26T06:44:00.000-07:00

Short post.

Friday night, went for first physics group tuition. It was quite fine, and the teacher is good !!! He made me sit in the front of the class, though, and then made me say hi to Shawn (I think, that's how his name's spelt.), then asked for my results, omg, it was totally the worst in the class, I think the next worst was Shawn's, which was a bludy E, and I was like, oh my shit, please save me from this embarrassment !!!!!!!! Hahaha, so I was whispering my results, so much so that I had to repeat myself twice, and he practically announced to the class my terrible results, by saying, don't worry, I know alot of NJ people who failed their physics too ! I was like, willing the floor to open up and swallow me whole. ):
Class has one other AC girl, who looks cool, and is smart, (B!), and AC guy, who speaks CHINESE, (?!), a random guy wearing working clothes (?!), 1CJ guy from chem class, Shawn from chem class, and two PJC guys who are SMARTER THAN ME, WOULD YOU BELIEVE IT ?!?!?!?!? Worst thing is, they sit NEXT to me, and I'm like, okay, I can't do the first mcq which involves SI units.
I guess this inferior feeling is basically my own fault, and I shall buck up.
Oh man I realise Edwin is damn freaking nice after reading his post.
Going home at 9.30pm alone is scary. PLUS I've to walk forever to get to my condo, then to my block. I must have shrieked.. at least 5times. ): My dad's too lazy to pick me up.. (Well DUH, he has more important things to do, and my mom definitely won't drive at night.)

Speaking of which, my dad said he's coming for PTM!!!!!!! Woo. I wonder if he'll really come though. Bet he'll come up with some last minute meeting. Doh. ==

Today!
Woke up damn early. Received nice msges from Gabriel and Jona. Then. Read Superposition for the entire morning and gave up at interference. Tuition teacher came EARLY, 2.30pm instead of 3. He is extremely decent, omfg. The kind I will never curse in front of, not even shit, at most exclaim, oh my gosh! Wth, but he is tons better than JENNY, LOL. Is anybody surprised == The best is yet to come. After 1hour of Superposition, I was ready to die. I was thinking, pls pls can end now. Did not happen, nvm. After talking animatedly for 2hours, I was ready to die, and I considered smsing my mom (who was in the house) for help. HAHAHA. Damn retarded, me. Anyways, I have a problem remaining nice for more than 1hour, because being nice takes energy, which I lack, and also, I have a HUGE problem concentrating, and my attention span is approximately 1second, unless it involves interesting people or interesting things involving interesting people. So. Dead would probably sum up my situation.
Just unfortunate for me that canoeists think I'm some kind of freak.
Thankfully, tuition ended 2h20mins later. And, I did manage to understand most of the notes.

Understanding isn't all there is to scoring, anyway, cos I still can't do any of the interference questions.
It beats me why.
That's all to my absolutely boring life.

I must study.

Forgive, because friendship is more important to me.

2008-07-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

<3 , to the random bits of happiness in my life.

2008-07-25T02:33:00.000-07:00

Heartbreaker ! (:

2008-07-25T02:24:00.001-07:00

Reflection.

2008-07-25T01:56:00.000-07:00

This night's a perfect shade of dark blue.

2008-07-25T01:25:00.000-07:00

I'm eating CHIPSMORE.

Oh gosh I'm such a pig. ):

2008-07-23T06:32:00.000-07:00

):

My heart hurts.
I think I have a disease.

2008-07-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

I just wanna say hello to you
But you’re not lookin’ my way
Like you trying to act cool
I think I lost my mind
Back there and then
Oh how I let my feelings go

You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…

*Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way
It fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
Yeah, it fades away
You just wanna say hello to me
Now the table’s turned
I’m not lookin’ your way
Don’t get it wrong
Oh, it’s twisted up
Alright let’s make this story short
You see, I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’ll put aside
Thought friends we would be
Oh, boy…

*Whao…
Why did it have to go down this way?
I’ll admit I feel you when you are near
Maybe baby we got it all wrong

Sweet.
These lyrics would have been meaningful some time ago. However, no more.

I dislike my schooling life very much.

2008-07-19T17:46:00.000-07:00

I know now.

2008-07-18T22:57:00.003-07:00

Proud to have been part of nyco.

2008-07-14T07:22:00.000-07:00

Like.
W.
T.
F.

Actually, time has passed and I've figured I don't really care. I just hate being lied to.

Rarhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I feel sad. I want to study. I want to study. I want to study. I need better concentration.

Anyways. Today was lame. Most memorable lesson: PE; we played the extremely lame game of soccer. And when girls play soccer, we scream more than we play. My throat hurts now.

I should spend less money, eat more healthily, pay attention in class, think positive, be more enthusiastic.

Had tuition today. It was so lame, because there were 5guys, and 3girls including me. One girl (Indian from NJ) was teacher's pet and answered most questions. The other girl , like me, didnt talk at all. The guys were talking more about other stuff (to do with gaming consoles and canoeing and cca -- they're all from SPORTS ccas, wth ! ) than chem.
Nonetheless, I found the lesson beneficial to my life.
And thus, I won't really bother about how weird lessons are and how nobody talks tome (duh.) and I shall concentrate on the lessonnnnnnnnnnn. Man, I think the lesson is really not bad, cos I only digressed and daydreamed say 5times, compared with fulltime in school.
Yay to me !

Reminder of the day (and week) :

1. Study hard.
2. No eyecandy.
3. Zac hates me.

Bastards and bitches, bengs and lians, gay shit.
Fcuk you all.

2008-07-12T03:24:00.000-07:00

414 girls ! ((:

2008-07-12T03:16:00.001-07:00

I'm stalking girls now. Like, oh muh gawd !!

Rarhhhhhhhh. I've been doing NOTHING but pw for the entire day. In short, wasting time. Cos I'm surfing alot.

Lesson learnt: Eyecandying is bad. Thus I have stopped. And I should stay this way. Yeah ! Jiayou to me. And I'm damn good at being a bitch and I feel like being one. So tell me, should I act bitch. HAHA. Goshhhhhhhhhh life is so boring.

Looking forward to NYCO concert and Bao's GUITAR CONCERT soon. Must take photossss. Oh , Wen, I think I'm gona change for nyco concert, cos wearing nj uniform will be extremely retarded and not prestigious.

Nice lyrics: Days go by and still I think of you.

My mother think's I'm les. She keeps asking if I do les stuff. And she says: Please don't be lesbian. HAHA. Like wtf. So old fashioned. Lesbians are cool luh.

OKAYYYYY. I dread weekends and I hate school. So what's there to look forward to in life ? Hanging out with friends. Hope that happens more often. : D

2008-07-12T02:09:00.000-07:00

More random shots.

2008-07-12T00:51:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh, Wu Chun is so cute, I'm going to die !!!!!

2008-07-11T22:51:00.000-07:00

Photossssssss.

Much not with me, cos I didn't carry my phone for performance. Send me all photos alright, people ! ((:

Please excuse my ugly face. ):

2008-07-11T19:52:00.000-07:00

There she goes
There she goes again
Racing through my brain
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

WOOHOO. Short and sweet. Guitar concert was a blast. And it was MUCH FUN. Will upload photos when I ever have the time. Yay to guitar3s , Jiayi and MiJie, we are so much fun !!! Thanks to Bao Shirley Sai for coming, 414rockssssssssss !!! ((:
Ohoh and thanks to classmates for coming to support ! : D

Meanwhile. I have floads of overdue stuff. Which I will attempt to complete. Soon. My mother is signing me up for tuition for chem and physics, one to one and group. Fuc, that means I'll be spending 1000+ on tuition for two subjects alone. Nutsssssssssssss. Why am I so stupid. ):

Okay I really have poor time management. And MUCH MUCH WORK TO CATCH UP ON.

Sorry to everyone I've rejected to help, I am really damn behind in my work.

To the idiots who keep talking to me, get lost. I really detest that only annoying people talk to me, and the people I want to talk to don't talk to me at all.
Alright that was an exaggeration. But still.

I love Goh Wenyiiiiii ! Thanks for being my best friend and entertaining me all day long. YAY. ((:

2008-07-10T07:24:00.001-07:00

Guitar today was fun.

An update on my results, I forgot if I did report them.
52/100 for math.
52/100 for econs.

OWNAGE LA. Lousiest in class. Haw haw. But nvm, I'm gona work after guitar concert !

Hahaha. I'm so glad our section is close and fun. And people from other sections are mostly nice. YAY. Concert tmr, JIAYOU BA !

If I can't have you, I don't want nobody.

2008-07-07T08:33:00.000-07:00

ALL THE LOVE !!

2008-07-07T01:42:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOO EVERYBODY !!!!!

Today I went for guitar prac - from 9-3++ , and damn, it was fun ! I think guitar 3's really bonded and the people are so nice. Hahaha. Ok I shall be more enthu in cca now. And, I feel quite.. cleared. Of my feelings. Haha honestly ! In guitar people are so unjudging and there're lots of scholars and weirdos but it's actually really nice.
Ah.
Well.

I don't like anyone anymore !! Hahaha. Thankyou, to whoever, for helping me get rid of that stone in my heart. T.T

Heal.

Concert this Friday, in LT5, and on 24July, at Esplanade. 16bucks for the Esplanade one, please come !!! ((:

2008-07-06T08:37:00.001-07:00

I said something extremely stupid yesterday. Hahaha oh mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. I just ruined my life. Hahaha okay not. I feel quite crazy. And very depressed. Extremely.

Then again. Common test nia. 20 percent nia. just mug from now on. if i dun mug i will lose out. i must try to like mugging.

And this. makes. so. much. sense. why can't i just adopt a mugger attitude. fucking hell, I want to end this suffering.
My regret.

2008-07-06T00:42:00.000-07:00

HAHA. Dom is disturbing me and calling me noodles. Then I asked him if he knew the guy in my dp. (Junfeng). Then this is what he said.

Dominic` Principal Q
who is it
Dominic` Principal Q
your bf?
kincheng
HAHA
kincheng
look like my bf ???
Dominic` Principal Q
ya
Dominic` Principal Q
it does
kincheng
HAHA
kincheng
that's your senior laaa
Dominic` Principal Q said:
k i bet
kincheng said:
hahahhaa
Dominic` Principal Q said:
hes the guy u like
kincheng said:
HAHAHAHHA
Dominic` Principal Q said:
k
Dominic` Principal Q said:
i saved
Dominic` Principal Q said:
your dp liao
Dominic` Principal Q said:
i go show
Dominic` Principal Q said:
lawrence
kincheng said:
hahahah oi !!!

Funny!

2008-07-05T10:02:00.000-07:00

I'm talking to chomp chomp. ~~Ha ha !!~~

Friday: Went with Ming and Bao to Orchard. FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. I love them to bits and I miss ny. Watched It's a Boy Girl Thing. Not too bad. Saw Karen outside the theatre ! (Cine) Talked for agessssss, Ming has zillions to say and fun updates about Jun Hao and class photos to show me. AND, this Derek person is apparently from her class. Hahaha. Bao forced me to pay for tickets for her guitar concert. Ha ha, I bet I'll totally fall asleep. And then we talked for ages till 10+ and I reached home at 11+ and my mom was boiling. So was my dad. That wasn't the end of torture due to Ms Chng. But I won't go into that. The world is so small, Bao was asking me about Eugene ( cos we were talking about nj canoeists) , and apparently he is from her PRIMARY SCHOOL HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Not only that, another one of her primary school classmates is in Ming's class now. So we were super amused. At the small small world we live in. I have cool friends. Haha(:

Saturday: Woke up at 10+, called JW and found out we had to go Orchard, for PW, so rushed out. Em. Did PW at Lido (I think) with JW and Jas ! Haha then I went to Jas's church service. OH I saw Mindy !! And Kian Wee, I think that's how his name's spelt ? The BB senior from my school. Who shook my hand and said, Hi, I've seen you before, what's your name ? Lol I bet he doesn't remember my name, cos it's damn hard to remember. ): Then I saw 2HC people from SJ if I'm not wrong plus my CO JUNIOR, who's name I forgot. I remember her cos she seats in front and plays gaohu, which implies that she's good.
Met JW after that and went for class chalet, FUN ! Many people went. Ate Subway with Jas Gab and Junfeng. Paid 17bucks for a marshmellow and leftover stingray from Junfeng. Then Jas went off halfway. And I went off with ShuYi. Gab was a life saver and lent me 25bucks to take a cab home. THANKS GABRIEL! The cab fare was 24.80, ha ha, close one. And I borrowed 2bucks from Gab for subway. OMG, I AM SO BROKE, I CANNOT STAND IT. Hahaha I never had zero cash in my wallet before, wth . Ok now I need to draw more money from atm machine, AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH ))))):

Life sucks, my family hates me. I must start working. Rarhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I am depressed.

I'm doing something stupid, and it's called helping Justin find a map of Turf City, inside and outside. Ha ha I am sooooooooooooooooo not focused. Cannot take it.

Oh my God. I should probably blog about this.
I was talking to justin, and this is how part of our conversation went.

[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199] says:
i got a girlfriend alr mind you
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
LOL
kincheng
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
reallyyyy
kincheng
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
who
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
so sweet arh
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
not telling you
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
but surely, not you
kincheng
walao !
kincheng
hahahah DUH
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
and she's in my room
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
so
kincheng
as if i dont know?
kincheng
hahahahah
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
i cant talk to you much
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
cos she saw and is pissed off
kincheng
ok
kincheng
say sorry to her
kincheng
for me
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
she's looknig at the convo
kincheng
okayyyyyyyy
kincheng
sorry im talking to your bf
kincheng
cos nobody else is talking to me
kincheng
except
kincheng
a weirdo
kincheng
:/
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
awww
[c=#F30199][b][☠JustinHar✖] i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not.[/b][/c=#F30199]
poor baby

And THEN, quite some time later, after 'talking cok' and leaving me in a disoriented state, he said he was talking nonsense. HAHAHAHAH I WAS LIKE, FUCK !!!

Ok. I'm quite crazy now. It's 1.49am. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAIMINNNNNNNNNNNNN ! Hope you read this, and sorry I can't stay over. :/ Have a wonderful day ((:

2.00am ! I shall do math. 15mins drafting an email that I shouldn't have needed to send. Oh, well. Ha ok I'm not gona do math la wth, I'm gona SURF ! The NET! Hahahahahha. Ok by Jas's definition, I am 'addicted' to the computer.

Omg WHERE IS WENYI. I need her to save me. Please save me, hahahaha. WEIRDOS ARE WTFISH I WANT TO TALK TO NORMAL PEOPLE.

2008-07-03T11:23:00.000-07:00

I am so stupid and even illegible handwriting can score so much better than me. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I need to do some serious reflection.

I AM SO DEAD. I have less than fucking 4bucks in my wallet, and i need to pay for millions of things tmr. And go out with Ming and Bao.
Nvm, ATM CARD, I will bring.

2008-07-03T10:03:00.001-07:00

I LOVE ZACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC.

And I need to kill myself.

2008-07-03T08:24:00.000-07:00

Omg. I am talking to tall dark and handsome.

Fwheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-07-03T07:29:00.000-07:00

Chompchommmmmmmmmmmmmpppppppp.

SUCH A CUTE NAME HAHAHAHAHA. I love it !

Zac hates me. )): )): )):

2008-07-03T07:12:00.000-07:00

My heart is in a million pieces and I can't explain why.

Lectures aren't too bad. Own tutorials. I am SO lagging in everything. And my brians are non existent.

I need to drop music theory and take up tuition.

But first, I've to tackle my mom, who is my hugest obstacle in life.

Kudos to that.

Regret.
So beautiful!

2008-07-02T16:47:00.000-07:00

34.5/100 for physics.

Yesterday Enid said something and I wanted to die and disappear from the face of the earth.

I fear for my gp results.

I sleep too much.

Regret.
You are so !

2008-07-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

30/100 for chem.

I need to wake up))))))): I wish someone would kick me and wake me up. Really.

I'm quite worried. For various reasons. Which relate to all aspects of my life.

Regret.
Perfection.

2008-06-28T09:26:00.000-07:00

That reminds me, I (honestly) think that Mr Yeo is going to sack me as math rep.
So.
Should I resign myself and save myself from embarrassment, or should I wait for him to sack me and be embarrassed since I deserve it ? .

2008-06-28T05:57:00.000-07:00

I should stop being such emo shite.

Here's a summary of what's my life been for the past week.

Monday.
First paper: GP. Which I did not study for. Was glad to hear that neither did Enid. Was late for paper with Jas, sat in the second row from the front, third seat from the left of the hall with GP class. Was cold, hungry, didn't know how to do essay, didn't get a word of compre. -- throw the baby out with the bathwater ???!?? Needed to pee badly.
Lunch: Gossipped. Jas said she infered something from the class blog, and we were like, what ? , and she said , attached , and we said , who's attached ??! and she said , you, and I said, you as in Enid ?! and she said, no, you as in you ! HAHAHA, my dear, that is so off. Nvm, you know the truth now.
Second paper: Econs. A blank mind. Gave 2 sloppy supply factors for essay a, crapped for essay b and the other section, I have no idea what it's called. Sat next to Enid (who was next to Eugene) and an unknown person, in front of karwoon, right in front of the air con, and it was freezing.
Home: Dad assured me I was going to fail both papers after I told him what I wrote.

Tuesday: Chem. Have nothing about myself, and my stupidity. A confirm failure.

Wednesday: math. the worst paper by far, compared with what I can actually do, if I study. I really want to die, looking at my performance. Left 30marks worth of questions blank. A confirm fail, a paper I don't want to get back, at all.
night: felt emo for the entire day, didn't study for physics till.. eh actually I didn't study. ERM. I read formulas, I think.

Thursday: Physics. Mcq was worse than Chem, cos none, literally, none of my answers were even in the mcq options. I simply died for the entire paper, cos of lack of practise, and knowledge. Was damn depressed.
After paper: Hung around school with Enid (like two lonesome people) and tried looking for people to go out with. Mission failed, went out together, just the two of us. Turned out to be really nice. Just talked and talked and emoed and complained and looked for bikinis. (our new obsession, now that we know Jas has a bikini and we don't.)
Home: Phone got confiscated, felt depressed. So I cried. Don't cry much, so once I start, I don't stop for a while. Stared at ceiling till 11.30 and decided there wasn't a point in staying up with such a splitting headache anyway.

Friday: Entirely screwed up physics prac, cos I studied in the morning. I am so dead, I don't wana think about it. Anyway, knowing that Edwin possibly did worse than I did, I feel a teeny weeny bit better, though I feel terrible for him.
After paper: Discussed pw for a bit. Went out with Enid Jas Jacky Daryl. Cos Junfeng chose to hang out with his guy friends over us. Sobs. (HAHA, just kidding.) Went to Rail Mall, ate Ramen ! Cos Subway was too crowded, and both Jas Enid and I ate it the day before. Jacky left halfway to sleep (!) so Daryl was left with us. Hahaha. Oh, thanks Daryl for cheesecake ! Went to KAP to talk. And then I went home. Hm, thank goodness for my friends, or I'd be quite dead by now.

Saturday: Went for buffet (= fattening) lunch at Changi Hotel -- which turned out to be really beautiful ! Spread wasn't too wide, I felt, (though my mom felt otherwise), but the food was good. Ate a (full) plate, then 2pratas, bits of desert my family took but didn't want to finish, and 2cups of teh. (the kind one buys at the hawker centre ?!) , it was super sweet and nice. And then my dad said: it isn't economically sensible for me to bring you for buffets. Whoops.
Met my dad's RI friend, two years his senior, who is a GRANDFATHER ! Like, wtf ! And then we figured his daughter (who's birthday's today) was the cool mom I noticed since the start of the meal. And LOOK AT ME ?!?!?!??!?! Boring ugly fat stupid poor ??!

Oh well that was kind of depressing. I need a phone. Someone please teach me how to get one. At the lowest cost. I am ji broke, have I mentioned. Paid 75bucks for using Internet on my phone. I will not do that again.
Speaking of broke, nobody paid me for aristal presents, which serves me right, cos I always forget to pay people back. Like right now, I think I owe someone money, but I can't remember who. Please tell me if I owe you money ! I have bad memory.

Going out with Ming and Bao on Mon and Fri, HURRAY ! Everybody else, call me at 67777206 if anything's up, LOVE YOU ALL ! (:

That reminds me, I have to complain to Enid about an annoying person online ! ==

Regret.
Complete.

2008-06-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

I am so screwed for CTs, I don't even know what to say.
Dread getting the papers back.

And my phone is confiscated. Omfg, I hate my mother. I really do. I need a life, and I need to stop emo-ing.

Regret.
And your image is imprinted in my head.

2008-06-21T20:18:00.000-07:00

IKEA BREAKFAST !

Yummilicious, as always.

So here I am on a Sunday morning. Sitting in front of my computer at 11.27am, a day before my deathly cts. It's really kind of strange that I'm even here; I'm usually slogging like shit the few days before exam week. But this is like .. Weird. I know I'm gona fail and I can't really stand to study. Hah seriously, I'm like super relaxed. Random worries here and there about what formulas I have to memorise and what shit I haven't touched, but I spent most of the week watching tv, movies, playing phonepool, talking, stoning.

Wonder what I've become.

2008-06-18T19:22:00.001-07:00

Save me from this place, heaven knows I've fallen.

2008-06-04T18:18:00.000-07:00

Oh my God. I just saw the most beautiful photo ever.

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=915426&op=1&view=all&subj=722422651&id=572035123#pid=889795&id=572035123

Like, f !!!

2008-06-03T03:19:00.000-07:00

I am damn sad, cannot stand it !! )):

Anyways. The latest news has had me going omgwtfbbq. x10000. Hahahahah DAMN IT. It consumes my mind full time, I can't do anything else but wonder and laugh.

ENID !! Let's go out and study some time soon, please !! I simply CANNOT do anything at home at all.

Class outing on Sunday was FUN STUFF ! YAY S10 ROCKS !!! Hahaha I am so grateful for my class. Haha we cycled (erhm) and it was SUPER tiring; obviously people with tree trunks for legs shouldn't cycle, since they'll have problems with balancing. Erps. Haha. And then we went for steamboat at bugis, where lots of other people joined us, including shuyi and zeren, yay ! Haha. We took up three tables -- mine was in the middle, with Pris, Constance, Wanling, and Eli; Jas's was with Zeren, Shuyi, Wanying, Kaimin, and the guys' table had Weihang, Daryl, Pingling, Lirui and Calvin. We took most of the food during the buffet, was damn funny. Wahaha. Let's have ice skating next round; though I can't ice skate, I think it'd be more fun to ice skate and fall on my butt than cycle. Heh.

Damnation.

2008-05-31T18:38:00.001-07:00

HIIIIIII.

Went shopping with mom on Thursday. My aim was to buy a bag, but I ended up buying other stuff instead; how typical of me.

Bought a guitar at Plaza Sing Yamaha -- awesome stuff ! Well at least I like it. Handcrafted in Spain, solid top, matted, cost 388 after discount !! Haha good thing it's GSS. Not that my mom wouldn't pay for it if it was any more expensive, but hey, getting good discounts is like, yay !

I feel like my vocab is sorely lacking, and 'yay' 's the only word I can use. My brain is.. sluggish.

Saw a Puma bag at Orchard OG, spelt gorgeousness. I WANT TO BUY IT !! Except that it costs slightly below a hundred bucks, and mua is too poor to afford it. Ah fffffffffffffffffff !!!

I am starting to think that it's a norm to get a Ugrade in SA. NicKang got a U for everything except Physics too. HELLO GOH WENYI ???? IT'S NORMAL IN YOUR SCHOOL TO NOT TO WELL!! DAMN UNFAIR LA THEN PEOPLE LIKE ME WHO HAVE NO BRAINS ARE IN NJC WHERE EVERYBODY MUGS LIKE NUTS AND SCORES SUPER WELL, NOT TO MENTION I'M IN A STREAMED CLASS !!!!!!!!!!!!!! ))))))))))))))):

Oh yes. A to do list.

-Pay Gab for cab fare
-Pay Jas for concert booklet (what's it called??)
-Pay Enid for Aristal ticket ( !!! )
-Settle presents bill
-Start on my work
-Pray that I pass CTs

2008-05-31T03:02:00.000-07:00

One week of the holidays have passed by, and I have done nought.

What am I to do about myself ??

Went for dinner with Jas yesterday. Junfeng and Gab were late, and Jas was cheesed. Then I took ages to finish my dinner and kept the guys waiting, sorry sorry ! >< Cabbed to UCC for Aristal. Which wasn't too bad. Saw lots of people there, Shirley, Shuyi, OMY. (whywhywhy does she have such a lovely wonderful life compared with ME, boo.) Western dance items were quite obviously the more interesting items, haha oh but there was this malay dance item which I found quite cool, albeit scary. (the suicide one). AHA. That reminds me, the dancers were like making weird aherm sounds and some guys starting laughing, like hello, how considerate ??!
took photos, yay ! (at this point, I apologise for ruining the photos.) and Jas Junfeng Gab and I took a very nice photo which I will upload when I can.

Enid Jacky Daryl, GOODJOB ! YAYEYY. :D :D

(haha once again I wonder how someone like me has such hot friends ?! )

Class outing tmr, YAY. Though the thought of cycling makes me crinkle my nose and go wth, it's so much better than sitting at home and doing nothing. and my cramps are killing me.

2008-05-28T01:47:00.000-07:00

Waiting for the day that I'm complete.

Thank goodness for school, I can't decide which I hate more, having floads to do, or having nothing to do. Eurgh, both are terrible terrible terrible.

Am super pissed at gp rep !!!!! Then again, to prevent my heart from being further damaged I shan't harp on it.

Gabriel is amusing x 10000000000000000. Must tell Enid about Karwoon's wedding cake, HAHHAHAHAH. Super mean but even more hilarious ! : D

I want motivation and brains.
And luck for tmr's SPA; I'm hopeless at pracs !!!! ): ):

-I can't explain this feeling

2008-05-24T05:20:00.000-07:00

I need to fill up the blanks in my notes. And figure out what the hell my notes mean.

Stupid me, why don't I have any concentration, why didn't I listen during lectures !!

Study session, anyone ?
Just sms me, or let me know, somehow. Some place near my house would be good.

You make me wana take you out and let it rain.

2008-05-23T06:46:00.000-07:00

Hols are here. I feel both relief and dread. Relief cos there's no pressure, dread cos no school=no gabriel=no entertainment for a month )):

nottiboy134 just called me chubby.
Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.))):

2008-05-22T13:23:00.000-07:00

What a horrible thing to happen.

I am quite traumatized.

2008-05-22T12:11:00.001-07:00

Now I know what to do.

2008-05-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

shy guys are nice
shy guys better than flirts
shy guys better than ego guys
shy guys better than drooling guys

so **'s all good !

You're quite right. What am I to do...........................................................................................

Horrendous gp va is absolutely killing me. I wish I was remotely creative.

2008-05-22T02:29:00.000-07:00

I am entirely horrified by tkw; wtf !

Honestly, Junfeng, next time it's your turn to sit opposite him. At least I'm sure he wouldn't stare in between your legs and tell you about your fat ~~bulky~~ thighs. Eurghhhhhhhhhhh. Shit, I am totally back to my nanyang ways -- handing in work EONS after the dateline. Rarh.

Saw quite a few nanyang people today !!! (: (: Like, Liting, Huiyan, (HC and RJ respectively, boo, I feel so inferior).
I miss nanyang, it's such a wonderful place to be in. Ah, LOVE !!

Have to rush loads of stuff today.
Damn.

All the riches baby, ~~don't mean anything~~.